why now?

I've always loved to write. It started as short stories in elementary school, longer ones in junior high, then on to term papers in high school and college. Then there was the long silence. At least on paper. My family will attest that it moved to my mouth. Now it's time to silence the mouth and improve my typing skills. And save the ears of family and friends.

When prop 8 came along two years ago, I took to the web, commenting and following others' comments. I discovered Facebook, and found long lost friends. But the status updates are not totally satisfying. A blog is the place to really express all of what goes on in my scattered mind. Some of the same old thing, and a bit of the latest obsession. Journaling out in space. Somehow both safer and scarier.

Why now? As my first baby prepares to leave the nest (second baby, first to leave), it seems the right time to embrace a new communication technology. I can record my feelings, the ones I'll forget by tomorrow. She can read whatever she wants to, ignore the rest, and I'll never know the difference. I can write without that novel facing me with the imaginary "reject" stamp already burning across each page. No editors required!

So the truth is, this Bud's for me. And if anyone else wants to share it with me, the more the merrier, but it's really just for me. The front door is open.